taking it all in my stride

My life may be a one way street. hopeless and shameful but do I give a fuck? sit at home drink, drugs discover new shit. 2ci, 5meoAMT/DMT, 2ct2, GBL,GHB,B2B,amt, dxm,dmt, all that shit and I want it all-lets all get nasty. I know I've done permanent damage. I had a morphine and bzp binge last weekend- not to mention the zolpidem,clonazepam and xanaz. I've got work to do and I really can;'t handle it so I'm reading about booze, searching for a site to buy reseach chemicals from, and getting pissed. may take somemore sleeping pills too. then all this shit job shit is goona be over-who cares when you've got dopamine?
I'm broke and can't see a way of ever securing a way of getting any money of my own. I'm drowning in debt but all I am is lazy, searching for the perfect high. I know this already.
Morphine slow release. 30mg's, a-fucking-lot of them and hip-hop-east side shit. Nas, terror squad, dmx, 50, Rakim, wu-tang, you know the deal.
Fuck it I've got San pedro ready to go, 5Meo AMT on the way, and my dealer in Costa Rica is getting his hand on morphine this week. he does all kinds of shit if you want. fuck it. blaze the beats and stay high-forget the reality of life's relentless sadness,
peace in death X