You know that I'm happy, you see smiles and jokes that idealise stars of theatre and screen, you see and that's all you've got, all you smell - all my nights scrubbed raw, all my putrid stench brushed and scrubbed till the sink runs red. How do my smiles look now? Do I believe in your God? Do I believe in your dream?
Answers sweat,and moisten my pits, I stink of your empty promises, I stink of you and your pointless hopes and transparent dreams. I kill. I hate the stupidity, I hate it because I want it, because I WANT IT!
I am numb, I am dysphoric, I wish one day to be human, I wish one day to love, I am without feeling, without love,
Tickle me, watch me sleep
Nothing can make my pain real, not tears spring forth, no gurgles of boiling rage break my surface, I am my own planet. Never planned for, just left to discover who I am, left to die alone.
I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG - i WANT THIS TO BE THE END, BE THE CUNTING END OF ALL THIS SHIT.